- Mary-Sue Cowell
Crystal Balls & Fortune Tellers. What Do we Know About the Future?
A couple weeks ago the Jehovah's Witnesses came to my door. I am not a Jehovah's Witness but I do believe in God. Don't get me wrong God and I have had our bumps in the past and certainly will in the future but I seem to come back around to God again and again. Anyways, each time the Jehovah's Witnesses come to my door I talk with them and give them time to express their thoughts. On this day Rupert came to my door once again with this question, "How do you view your future?" That is deep! He shared his information with me and we chatted for a few minutes and then they were on their way. I sat down on our bench in the front room and thought, "How do I see my future?"
My first and honest thought was I do not have a crystal ball, nor am I a fortune teller and after a year of cancer surgeries and treatment the answer in that moment was UNCERTAIN. I allowed myself some tears as the anxiety and fear bubbled up. I acknowledged the feelings and then thought more about life and the fact that nobody really has certainty about the future. We plan and organize but as the saying goes there really are no guarantees. We all have our challenges or as some people call it "baggage." I refer to mine as my POS; Pile Of Shit. As I walk, skip, run through life at times I need to wade through the POS because it is deeper than I would like. I'm learning that that is how life goes and we all wade through our piles at different times and in different ways. As I thought further about my POS, I realized something... I have waded through a lot of piles already in my life, some large some small but none the less I have made it through the piles... AND I will be able to wade through some more. The only thing I really have control over is this moment...
So when I think about the future it makes me think about TODAY, the present, that's all I can really influence. In the moments I have am I present? Am I sharing love with those around me and with myself? Am I connected? Am I doing things that are moving me forward? If I can say yes to one of those questions I am moving in the right direction. I am getting closer to the person I am meant to become. I can feel good about that and in turn feel good about the future. I don't know exactly what is in store for me. I realize there will always be some wading through the pile to do. This may slow me down or even stop me and cause me to fall at times however I do know that if I take charge of the present the future is mine to carve out. Know the future by being active now. Take charge of your moments for we truly do not know how many we will have. I encourage you to do something today that moves you forward, however big or small that is for you. Know your future by owning your present!